things are happening
Dec. 15th, 2018 02:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lakenziemy doctor called me on Thursday with the results of my ultrasound, and I have an "enormous" gallstone and some sludge in my gallbladder as well. I happy cried, because finally we have facts, answers, and a clear way to fix this issue that has been bothering me for basically years.
I go in to meet the surgeon Monday afternoon, I assume to like, go over what needs to happen and how and whats expected of them and me--and to schedule the actual surgery I hope.
I just really hope that I can get into surgery before christmas, mostly just because I don't want to have to wait for the new year to be able to eat again.
it's still really weird, cause my doctor is still like "stay hydrated, food isn't important" and basically I'm barely eating and thats a...good thing?
as someone whose had a very volatile relationship with my body image and food for years, this is hard to accept. I've had to force myself to eat before, because often I just stop feeling hungry. so like, this feels too easy to do--barely eating. but its fine right now, its fine...
just gotta remember to eat again once I'm allowed to eat again...
eating is good, eating is important, just not right now.
I go in to meet the surgeon Monday afternoon, I assume to like, go over what needs to happen and how and whats expected of them and me--and to schedule the actual surgery I hope.
I just really hope that I can get into surgery before christmas, mostly just because I don't want to have to wait for the new year to be able to eat again.
it's still really weird, cause my doctor is still like "stay hydrated, food isn't important" and basically I'm barely eating and thats a...good thing?
as someone whose had a very volatile relationship with my body image and food for years, this is hard to accept. I've had to force myself to eat before, because often I just stop feeling hungry. so like, this feels too easy to do--barely eating. but its fine right now, its fine...
just gotta remember to eat again once I'm allowed to eat again...
eating is good, eating is important, just not right now.